Sometimes I’m attracted to a particular thing or sound or food/drink for no particular reason that I can name. My craving may attach itself to something I’ve known about and/or liked/loved for years. But all of a sudden, that’s all I want in my life.
What is this? It’s like a pregnancy craving. With my first son, I wanted milk all the time. Great, right? With my second, I wanted sweet tea, which sucked because I was living in Maryland at the time, and the only place to get good sweet tea was Bojangles. Thank God for Bojangles! My daughter was a different matter. I craved protein—in the form of hamburgers and steaks.
While I was pregnant, I figured cravings were trying to tell me something. I figure the same thing about these life cravings. Right now, all I want to listen to is Lifehouse and all I really want to read is manga/comics. I prefer drawing to writing, unless it’s poetry. What is my body trying to tell me?
Maybe it’s my spirit. Maybe it’s a type of spiritual pregnancy craving. I’ve completed my comic book (I’m moving away from calling it a graphic novel on my son’s suggestion), so it’s not that, but I can’t escape the feeling that my cravings relate to what’s happening in my creative life. In some way I can’t honestly name.
Craving Heart
By Michelle Garren Flye
Amorphous at first, like the moon’s touch,
Then filling the mind and life.
What is it you long for, want so much?
Sometimes sharp as a knife
Other times soft…you’d never hurt.
Give it to me, you whisper,
Give, and it’ll quench your thirst.
Resist you? Oh, that, I’d never!
I know how you get, my craving heart,
When I attempt to ignore
The insinuation of your persistent art.
No, I’ll surrender to wanting more
Of whatever you say I require.
I’ll see where this craving leads,
I’ll follow the road of desire—
And allow the nourishment of your needs.
